Everything Is Music...

Why Can't I?

2012-01-27T18:41:00.000-05:00

2012 is the year of the dreamer, the achiever so, click the link and ask yourself...

Why Can't I, Reach for The Sky?

Just My Thoughts, Coming Soon.

-B

Day 10...

2011-11-16T19:00:00.001-05:00

Day 10…

We haven’t spoken in years. I mean, about some real shit, in YEARS. It’s very generic. I guess…I know it’s my fear of what you’ll think of me. You know, your facial expressions say what you mean the best. The assumption of disappointment or shock brings fear. Man, I wish I could tell you everything! Have a ‘sista-girl’ moment, you know what I mean?

*Sigh* However, there are a few things that prevent me from being forward with you. Although it would be easy for me to point the finger, I will say that the reason why I won’t is all because of me…

It's much easier to get thru this by blurting out what's next but I won't so, bear with me. Be patient with me. For once. Be understanding. Be listening without immediate judgement. Be able to know when to give a shit! And, be able to know the difference between jokes and the serious things- even if they are minuscule to you and your vastly diminishing bubble.

I write this with the sincerest respect. And Love.

-B

The Blinkin' Lincoln 11/4/11...

2011-11-10T19:00:00.002-05:00

Last Friday was a HUGE success! The turnout for the show was beyond expectations and for everyone who came, paid, donated and gave words of encouragement, I THANK YOU!

If you would like to see the show for the first time, the tenth time or just want to share it with your friends and family, here it is!

Part 1:

Part 2:

...This is ONLY the beginning!

-B

November 4th...

2011-10-28T19:00:00.002-04:00

JUST 1 WEEK away from the BEST rock-out, sing-off session of the year!!!!

LOL, but seriously, if you're in the Philly area, and want to check out some AMAZING artists, then you need to be in Manayunk on November 4th from 10:00pm to 2:00am. I'll be there (up first so get there on time :)) along with Aneesah Beyah, Lost In Company, Ghingy Miles, JaE, and BMBU! Check the flyer:

The address is:

Dawson's Pub

100 Dawson Street

Philadelphia, PA 19127

-B

Day 9...

2011-10-21T19:00:00.002-04:00

I'm back to my 30 days of writing. Yes, this WILL get completed! Because it's been so long and most of my new readers aren't aware of the project, here is the link Why not give it a try yourself? You'll open up, release some emotions and finally close some doors. I did all that so far and, I'm only on day 9! So, here we go...

Dear PRN,

Truly, I adore you!
If I could meet you, I’d probably be speechless!
You’re amazing to me. I’d be breathless...
And when the time comes, because I know it will, I will have to put my game face on.
Enamored, I am, of you.
Excessive, I know.
But your talent excites me and, if I was half as expressive as you still are, I’d be the most confident creature on the planet!

Your privacy in the spotlight.
Your timid demeanor off the stage.
Your presence when you're on.
All these gifts you have down to a complete science. These gifts I admire the most...

So, until I find that mental space you will continue to move and motivate me to be great.

Love,

B

B.Fly on MMTV...

2011-09-21T19:49:00.001-04:00

#InterviewFlow

MMTV - McFadden Music TV on Soulinterviews... by Soulinterviews

Shout out to Dominic McFadden for his time, energy and opportunity!

Hip Hop HD...

2011-07-27T19:18:00.005-04:00

Hey hey!! So I'm featured on another HOT track!! Check out Hip Hop HD, Produced by I Double L. Check it:

http://www.reverbnation.com/tunepak/3392619

Here's some info on the track:

15. Hip Hop HD - I Double L feat. B.Fly (Produced by I Double L)

"I was honored to have the beautiful B.Fly on this track. Basically the idea is that we are all Hip Hop one way or another. Hence the name Hip Hop HD!"

(Recorded at Bat Cave Studios -Rantoul, Illinois Mix and Mastered by I Double L)

Make sure you tell a friend to tell a friend and, keep listening for music by B.Fly!

Summer - @HallmanComposer - Featuring @BflyOnline ...

2011-06-15T19:41:00.008-04:00

Hello all my fellow Music Heads and, welcome back!! We're gearing up for a wonderfully EXCITING album and, in the meantime, my composer friend and I have teamed up to make a techno banger! Summer is written my yours truly, B.Fly and produced by the most talented Joseph Hallman. AND, it's my very first track on iTunes!! Check it!:

Click the Pic

Your thoughts?

Follow Joseph Hallman on Facebook HERE

Follow Joseph Hallman on Twitter HERE

It's Official!!..

2011-05-07T11:52:00.008-04:00

This Spring has been amazing thus far!

I have been offered to work on I Double L's album (again), artist Mike Shyne, E.T. The producer, Musically Gifted, Jeeta, Jane Doe and, Joseph Hallman's projects!

DJ Drops keep coming in as well! If you're interested in a drop from me, send me an email to bookbfly@gmail.com

My business partner and I have officially started Over Time Grind Productions, LLC! Check our site HERE

We have officially 3 major sites that I'm SURE you'll love: www.so-stadium-status.com, www.indytrackhustle.com and, www.gimmie-dat.com

Over Time Grind is also responsible for twitter marketing and promotions to help your business/career become and stay global!

Last, but not least, my mixtape, Just My Thoughts is still in creation!!

This is only the beginning, friends. I have gained such an overwhelming sense of gratitude for all the blessings in my life right now, it's ABSOLUTELY AMAZING!! Hard work, dedication and consistency DOES pay off. STAY TUNED!!

#OTG

Welcome!...

2011-04-17T12:34:00.002-04:00

I welcome you today, Sun!

And through the rain, I welcome the chirps and clicks of mating birds...

Green grass, trees and pink lilies.

Whispering winds and bumble bees.

Welcome Sun!

And, I cannot forget to thank Rain, for washing away the past of Winter.

For waking up hibernating minds and goals.

Waking up the colors and sounds that hibernate.

Winds with storm and grey clouds, filled with the promise of future life and love.

Oh love!

How I welcome Love because, without it, there is no life!

There would be no cycle to continue, or seasons to look forward to.

No birds chirping, no flowers blooming no hearts singing...

Welcome!

The Truth...

2011-04-02T22:47:00.002-04:00

The truth is, we killin' our kids.

Babies been having babies for a couple of years.

Street wars, gang violence and a couple of beers...

My job is gone

My money is too now, tell me Obama,

What am I gonna do?

And the Heartland. What I can't understand is,

How we let them take the fabric from our land...

The cars, the clothes, the technology.

But we still call America free.

Citizens labeled refugees,

After they built this country?

And,

It's okay to call her your maid when $2.00 an hour was all you had to pay...

Still sending kids, who have no idea, to a war created by fear.

And, we watch TV and all we see is,

Celebs in rehab and faces like me up on a t-shirt.

And a mama like mine with tears in her eyes 'cause a brother like mine who thought he had the time, to make it better here...

And I fear.

The end is near.

Grenade Bruno Mars Cover...

2011-03-27T17:32:00.001-04:00

So I finally got my computer back and boy, do I have A LOT of catching up to do!! First things first: a youtube entry. Check it:

Your thoughts?

Make sure you comment, rate and subscribe!

-B.Fly

Her Love...

2011-02-19T05:18:00.002-05:00

With arms outstretched, she reaches for me.

The warmest, most tender yet strongest embrace that anyone can ever experience.

And she shares it with us all. No one feels less-than in her presence.

No judgement, because she knows that God takes care of that.

Those hands that taught me to sew.

Taught us to rejoice in church pews.

Taught us all to put our palms together, every night, and pray...

The voice that chided my mischievous deeds.

The same voice I looked forward to speaking to, every Spring .

The same sweet voice that knew my name with her eyes closed, even in her last days...

She succeeded. God's plan is filled with love, and she gave it. She became a best friend to the most innocent and, that can never be forgotten.

Oh, I will always miss you, Grandmom.

Are You A Game Changer?

2011-02-08T19:11:00.002-05:00

I saw this clip on worldsstar, kinda surprised that it was on there! These are the newest faces in industry music. Janelle Monae, Lupe Fiasco(who has been a hip-hop staple for years), B.O.B. and Estelle. What makes them 'game changers' is their ability not to bend or break or fit a mold:

Love it! Catching little 'diamonds' like these in my web-surfing makes me feel like my music is not done in vain...

'So Many Words'- produced by I Double L

2011-02-07T14:31:00.007-05:00

Here it is!! The first master off of the Just My Thoughts album and, an installment for the No Love Lost Mixtape:

This track was written by me, B.Fly and produced by I Double L. I was sitting in my room one night, not able to sleep when I went on his reverbenation site and heard this beat. I had to have it! So, here is the lovechild. What do you think?

Download and enjoy!

'Day 8...'

2011-01-26T12:07:00.002-05:00

To my favorite internet friend-

We barely know each other yet, you challenge me with new words- some of which I never knew the meaning to. You're not a facebook, myspace or twitter friend. Just a wordfeud opponent and that's probably the best part! You're not all hype over who said what and why, you just wanna play scrabble on the phone...

Super dope!

No stress. No assumptions, just words.

Just the game. It's refreshing.

Thank you!

Tracks...

2011-01-18T01:37:00.002-05:00

Finished a track today! Although I was very excited, I had a little difficulty with the 'life' of the music.

Sometimes, you may try so hard to get the tempo and lyrics down, that you forget the emotion in a piece. It's okay! It happens.

My best suggestion is to remember where those lyrics came from. Remember when you wrote them down and what you were feeling like. Then lay that THANG down!! :)

Anyway, the track is called 'Summer' and, it will be on a new mixtape by Joseph Hallman! An extremely talented classical composer, teacher and performer. He's also from my hometown, PHILADELPHIA!! Check his site HERE.

And remember, LIFE!

Day 7...

2011-01-11T21:51:00.003-05:00

Day 7 is to the Ex.

While it's easy to place blame for how my life is currently shaped, I won't. Because you're no longer apart of it...

However, I will say that the aftermath of 9 years has not been pleasant. I mean, damn! I've been alone, involved, happy, sad; and through all these stages in life, I've managed to blame myself completely. Clearly there were two people involved and clearly, both of those people had issues that we couldn't overlook.

As selfish as it may sound, I no longer care about you. That's my way of dealing. The disadvantage(s) of that mentality has adversely affected current relationships. By relationships, I mean intimate and otherwise. Relationships dealing with my family, friends and the significant other.

But I'm still not mad with you. I still can't wrap my logic around what others think should be the definition of blame. We're adults, and we must deal with life and the way it has come to be. I refuse to use our past as a crutch because all that matters is today and tomorrow.

I wish you the best in yours, Sincerely.

Happy New Year...

2011-01-03T11:59:00.003-05:00

After finally getting settled in, I figured out what my solid resolution will continuously be. Over the past couple of years, I have seen my own growth and have also attempted to prove it to others. No more. If the change is real, it will show.

I took a much need walk today. After being sick for almost two weeks, the sun on my face and the cold air hitting my skin was much needed. My 'sick days' definitely did not help with inspiration or work...

Which leads me to my resolution: to look in the mirror. Yea, easier said than done for me. Simply put- to attack myself with motivation before I can even imagine inspiring others. Sometimes, we need to put the fire under our own asses before we take the torch outside.

Let 2011 begin!

Quick Links...

2010-12-29T07:18:00.002-05:00

Hey guys and gals, it's been a minute!! But I'm here to share a few links with you all.

B.Fly's Reverbnation: http://www.reverbnation.com/bfly <---BECOME A FAN!

The Invasion Mixtape: http://www.trackstatusmusic.com/ <---DOWNLOAD THE MIXTAPE!

Web promotion and design: http://www.weneedpromo.com <--- GREAT SERVICE!

Artist Link: http://www.idoublel.com <--- AMAZING ARTIST WHO IS ON HIS GRIND!

Happy Holidays everybody! Be safe, and stay blessed. :)

Day 6...

2010-11-22T14:21:00.007-05:00

You may know me.

I don't know you yet.

But I feel we've met long ago.

No past life flow. No silly reincarnated stories of anguish.

See, you're a stranger to me and, no stranger words have been said- you are who I see.

In my thoughts

In my dreams

In my mirror

You succeed to make yourself known.

To look right thru me.

And as much as I try to deny who you are

My eyes are your eyes

We share the same soul.

I haven't tapped into the beauty that is you. I know.

So day after day,I make it a goal.

To get up, and get into who you are.

Our gaze intertwined.

No longer feeling forced.

No longer deemed lazy, or running, or weak...

I laugh and I cry and I smile.

And I stare.

Hypnotized because you are a reflection of who I can be!

Who I am becoming...

I stare. In awe.

Knowing that people go thru their entire lives not seeing their stranger.

I know I'm blessed.

Refuse to second guess.

Sometimes question, why I let me become the stranger.

And when I no longer see you as the stranger pieces of me is the day we finally meet.

THE OFFICIAL INVASION MIXTAPE: Here in 7 Days!

2010-11-19T14:13:00.002-05:00

Work, work, WORK!! Not only have I'been working on my own project, Just My Thoughts, I will be featured on The Invasion Mixtape! Check out the promo vid here:

Many other projects in the works as well! In the meantime, in between my blog time, check out www.so-stadium-status.com for ALL the interesting news!

You Love Me...

2010-11-01T00:38:00.014-04:00

I bore easily.

But when it comes to you,

there is something not-so-new,

that takes over me.

I can't explain

the unthinkable strain you have over me.

Never do I ever want you to let go of me.

Your words, they flow deep and it is thru me

That I will express all the love you have given me,

You see my Music, it comforts me

In ways that I never knew it could for me.

And before I discovered it,

it discovered me.

Now,

As I sit with this impromptu blog,

aka, my lyrically melody,

Under the dark blue sky,

the streetlights blinding me.

I let my fingers walk across the keyboard gently...

My mind, infinitely in your grasp and

this is how you've continuously treated me!

So as I write thee,

I'm taking out the time

to appreciate you loving me.

I know my music loves me.

Because there is no place in this world

that you would not take me!

And all you've ever asked was for me to be me.

And thru you I can be complete.

From A Distance...

2010-10-23T14:03:00.002-04:00

...and as I watch the stars

from afar I wonder...

Will it be me?

Should I even question

the distance of it's reality?

Will I be placed among them

instead of looking up at their amazing grace and,

in that space,

that empty space

is my place in the sky.

Prepared, polished and ready

when I feel the fear is gone and

its my time.

The days pass,

the work flows and,

from a distance I truly know that

the empty space that I see

is reserved for me.

Interview...

2010-10-10T13:21:00.001-04:00

A few weeks ago, I was interviewed by the lovely Tunisia Engram for her segment called, Lyrically Speaking' for a new locally-based show called 'In The Midst'. The show airs on Comcast channel 66 and Verizon channel 29 every Wednesday at 1pm.

It was a great experience and I'm so appreciative that she even thought of me!

Catch me at the 12:44 mark:)

Click the link:

Watch In the Midst Pilot on Vimeo! http://vimeo.com/15615090

Enjoy!

Networking...

2010-10-06T22:41:00.003-04:00

I went to homecoming this past weekend. I worked my butt off! I spoke to all my friends and fellow musicians that went to Clark Atlanta University. Gained a few brilliant connections and validated the value of networking- even if you think you know people already, you don't know what they've done. You don't really know what a person has been up to unless you speak with them and see them in action!

It pays to talk. With substance and confidence.

It also pays to keep in touch. I will do just that!

Check out the new card:

Beautiful Surprise- India Arie Cover- Acapella

2010-09-26T03:21:00.002-04:00

It's 3am on a Saturday night/Sunday Morning. While you're out, I sing!

Press Play:

I'm A Star...

2010-09-25T00:09:00.004-04:00

Listen to this song on I Double L's upcoming album, Contemplating Greatness, featuring B.Fly(thats me!)

I'm A Star:
http://twiturm.com/ahtqy

Look Away!...

2010-09-13T00:27:00.003-04:00

Nah, I'm just playing.

But not really.

As the fall gets going, I'm becoming busier. I am SO loving it! I had my very first interview as B.Fly and, it went so well that, I get to perform at a launch party. *insert happy dance*

I call this post "look away" for a few reasons:

The less I worry about the things I can't control, the less stress I'm under.

The less stress I'm under, the more creative I am.

The more creative I am, the more music I create.

Its an endless masterpiece- this cyclical motion of life. What we choose to gaze at shapes us. Its what we ultimately learn from and sometimes, we have to un-learn the things that cause the drama.

So, will you look away with me?

4th Quarter...

2010-09-01T23:24:00.002-04:00

Earlier today, I was on twitter (@bflybelton) and I tweeted:

"4th quarter. Are you tying up loose ends or, are you just getting started??"

Well, what's your answer?

Are you still talking about the same goals you wanted to reach back in January, February, March...?

Or,

Are you acting on those words? Have you completed the goal?

Personally, my goals have become more concrete and realistic with time. This comes from a great deal of work, sweat, tears...and swift kicks in the ego. (yall know who you are. cant thank you enough!)

It also comes from watching others. The ones that push pride to the side. The ones that burn bridges. I've seen it all, simply because I found my patience to watch and learn...

The 4th Quarter is 30 days away. Have you done, reached, accomplished? Are you close? Or are you still talking?

I'm confident that my 4th Quarter is abundant. I have no fear. Let's get it!!

Fun Facts...

2010-08-15T18:58:00.003-04:00

Fun Facts I've learned along the way. Mostly in 2009-2010 because now, I have more time to focus on life around me.

1- Helping people help themselves is a win.

2- Don't be so consumed with the future. Keep your feet firmly on the ground you're walking now.

3- No one. I mean NOBODY, is a mind reader. Always ask questions and retain answers.

4- The thing that I cannot ever control is you.

5- Same goes for me.

6- Speak your profession into existence. And make sure it's the one you're destined to do.

*For example, I am B.Fly. The Singer, Writer, World-renowned Artist.

*No one can tell me different.

7- It's okay to doubt, just don't doubt yourself into failure.

8- For goodness sake, you're human. Stop trying to be perfect!

9- The only way you can please everyone else is by pleasing yourself FIRST and ONLY.

10- Having a big heart and not getting taken advantage of IS possible. It's okay to love and respect one another.

Yall can thank me later ;)

What Is Love...

2010-08-15T18:40:00.001-04:00

What does love feel like?

Is it silk, satin or, cashmere with lace trim?

Wool, rayon, pleather or, crushed velvet? In triple-digit weather...lol

Is it a polyester spandex blend, that hugs you tight in all the right places, all while making you sweat with frustration because, its not a gentle embrace?

There are many analogies I can use.

I know. I mean, deep down in my gut and in my heart, that love is simple!! It's one of the easiest things we have on the planet yet, we make it SO hard. Damn. Why??

When I see people holding hands down the street, I smile. Because I know that possibly 5 minutes before they stepped out, that may have had a petty disagreement. But love, true love, knows how to communicate. Often without saying a single word.

Love is your favorite fabric, drink, food, person, happy-place. No one man or woman should be deprived.

Day 5...

2010-08-15T18:10:00.006-04:00

Dear Dreams-

You're getting stronger and much clearer each day. Some people may think I'm crazy for investing so much importance in my dreams but, there's no explanation needed when you reveal so much truth...

Like, when last August, I had a dream a Lion was attacking my territory? I got fired 2 days later.

Or when I dreamt that a woman was taking the time of a person I love so dearly? Yep, she was and still is...

How about another! When I had the dream where I was writing a song, and two days later, a producer called me and asked me to record some original music...

I don't give you all the credit tho, my dear Dreams. All of it really is linked to my spirituality and confidence in God. You see, without that link, I don't believe that you would be so vivid. I don't believe that names, places and perfect detail would even come to me.

The other day, I had a dream that I was yelling, but no one heard me. I knew then that, yelling, screaming, repeating words in vain was just a waste of my energy and, a lost of creative strength and valuable time.

So today, I blog. This serves many purposes in my life and I couldn't be happier for it. :)

The advantage? I'm closer to God. I have a better understanding of me and my goals in life. I know what b.s. I will not take. I know that I can't get a grasp of my circumstances if I'm always talking and not listening.

The only disadvantage is that I don't take heed until its too late. That's just sometimes. I may not see whats right in front of me until it hurts too deep. Dreams, you're teaching me to follow and trust my instincts. And believe what is being shown to me. What's right in front of my face.

Many Thanks-

B.Fly

P.S.: Some people may think it's crazy. They just don't believe. And, you know what? It's not for them to believe however, In due time, they will see.

Day 4...

2010-08-15T17:55:00.005-04:00

To My Sister-

I took sound advice from someone the other day, that led me to believe that, your words were not from a place where hurt resides. They are from a place where you care enough not to sugar- coat. I am supposedly 'overreacting', when the 'fat bitch' phrase is thrown around because, you care so very dearly about my health and well-being...

Let me not get too sarcastic. I'd still put my life on the line for you. Ans, all the years of my admiration still won't equal the future days of bragging rights I feel I'm entitled to. To say my sister is a children's Nurse, A mother of 2 beautiful children, a safe sex advocate, public speaker, and literary junkie, makes me feel like there's a Nobel Peace Prize winner in my presence!

All I want to say? I love you. I still look up to you. You still are my everything sister. You're the only one I've got and, thats no punishment to me. One day, you'll see that I'm no burden either.

Forever-

Your Baby Sister

Into the Night...

2010-08-08T18:07:00.004-04:00

Into the Night.

He rides.

Car waxed so right that you could see the night off the paint.

Red-coated, like the passion.

The fire inside him.

Skyline glaring back at you, he looks in his rear view...

Rides thru the night,

Stars so bright reflecting off the eyes of him.

Steps out the car, 6 foot god that Rome missed out on,

But Babylon appreciates his craft...

Gets to the club to see the people dancing to his beats.

They're hypnotized by the sound.

They have no clue that he's the man who plans the chords just right,

with just one press,

an ear, wrapped so tight around the melody...

But all we see is the DJ, spin in order, blinded by the flashing lights...

So, he steps out, and rides back into the night.

Suicide...

2010-07-31T01:42:00.000-04:00

This one is not about the music.

I had a really fucking awesome day today.

I talked to a friend, and actually said what it is I feel inside, about my music and, it sounded like everything it is supposed to be.

Found a super cute dress for 5 bucks!

I got out the house and, the feeling of loneliness wasn’t with me. I was just in my skin, and loving it.

So…

This is my suicide letter to some of the people in my life.

I’m jumping off the bridge, splitting my wrists, and overdosing on the pills of self-pity. Because you don’t trust me. You regret the past or, you have no faith in me or what I do. I put the gun to my ears to keep from hearing, “it’s just a phase”

Suicide is selfish. That’s why I don’t point the finger at any of you. I point the finger at me, and my gift of a big heart that I allowed to be an enabling curse for all you selfish bastards.

This is an explanation because I want to give it. And I’m just simply exhausted of fighting to be noticed. Yes, you see me but, do you see me? The person that I am, I’ve grown to be and will continue to be?

It is absolutely liberating, to be honest and secure and vocal, and humble enough to get on my knees and pray every day. To take time every day to spend with me, myself and I yet, it still feels like it’s not enough for you. And you. And you, and…

Guess what? I kill myself. I’m dead. Allow me to fall off like a scab from a bruise you got when you were young, never to leave a trace. But if I do leave a stain on your skin, allow someone else to heal it because, I will not be guilty any longer for past mistakes.

I may lose some friends, followers, or foes. But what I have and will continue to gain, feels absolutely, unbelievably astounding.

The freedom to be me. The talkative, sweetheart that would give her last bite to the man on the corner. That would offer the lady at the bus stop a ride to her home on the other side of town. The woman who, offers food, shelter and a chance for others to vent, with just one phone call or text.

The woman who thinks naiveté is okay, just as long as you see the world as a beautiful place with some sort of a definition of a happy ending.

The woman that gets so overwhelmed that, she just needs a break but won’t take it because she knows that someone out there needs her. And if they don’t, they sure are playing the role well...

The woman that has finally kicked away the chair but you were too busy, saying what she doesn’t do, to even notice.

Eyes For You: An Original Acapella...

2010-07-27T15:25:00.001-04:00

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Day 3...

2010-07-24T20:08:00.000-04:00

Day 3:

Dear Parents-

You two, individually are awesome. As a unit, you meant well. I don’t mean to sound cold but we all know by now, it just is what it is.

I cant say that this letter will be loving. Not at all. In a matter-of-fact way, this letter will simply display that product that you both are responsible for. The goal that you both vowed for, under God. The test that you both have failed.

And then, in your self-centered agreement, you bought children into the equation and, taught them the exact way not to do it. So…

Who do we look up to?

Who do we ask, which way to go?

What kind of Mother to be?

What kind of man is an ideal candidate to be the Father and Husband to the unit that we are meant to create?

You both are selfish. But I can’t blame you but so much. At 28, I should have been able to figure out the mess made by now, right?

I know these questions will be answered with, “Well, we can’t turn back time…” so, I just don’t ask them anymore. I often catch myself, taking it out on my significant other and, ultimately causing a relationship to struggle. But, I’m not the only one and, you are not the only parents to blame. There are tons like you, who sought something that they THOUGHT was the dream. Not having a blueprint yourselves, you just continued the domino effect.

So, a generation is teaching itself how to love, honor, cherish and obey. Simple rules, crafted for the selfless…

Simple rules that, immature definitions of love couldn't possibly follow…

The cycle. It stops. Right here. Right now.

Sincerely, Your Child

Reset...

2010-07-19T13:40:00.002-04:00

I had a few challenges over the weekend...

First, losing a friend to a ridiculously petty situation and, ultimately finding the root of the problem to be fear...

Second, I had to delete all my music programs from my computer which, meant all beats, recorded songs, lyrics, etc...

Third, and thru all this, trying to keep busy, without tucking away and internalizing the situations above.

All of these things brought, tears, a few listening ears, and a brand new feeling of faith, patience, and persistence. In the past couple of weeks, I was doubted. I was told that my hard work was just a phase. But, I was also pushed and, I couldn't be more grateful at this time.

The album will NOT be out this Summer but, trust, when I release these thoughts and emotions, you will be blown away!

This is just my time to regroup, refocus, and reset.

Thank you for believing in me and my talent. I promise I won't disappoint you!

Day 2...

2010-07-14T01:07:00.000-04:00

Day 2:

Dear Crush-

You still rock my socks.

You make me blush and I get stupid clumsy, giddy, and downright stupid whenever we speak.

Love stoned? Heck yea!

Can you still be a crush, even though we were already a couple? Obviously…

I guess I shouldn’t call it crushing for that reason. It’s loving. Yep…

Always pick up your calls. Pressed.

Does that make you a crush or me vulnerable?

And now, A Poem for You:

From the moment I saw you,

I knew you were the one…

Your fly, matched my fly

Yes, you’re my type of guy.

No, I can’t explain it,

My thoughts? I can’t contain it…

More than a crush,

Oh baby, its love…

But its killing me softly that I cannot have you,

Still want you,

Still need you,

I can’t explain why…

I only have eyes for you

Not a star in the sky…

I don’t know if it’s cloudy or bright…

When that boy walks by,

Angels in heaven align…

But its killing me softly that I cannot have you,

Still want you,

Still need you,

I can’t explain why…

I only have eyes for you

Sincerely, Your Admirer

Day 1...

2010-07-12T23:25:00.002-04:00

Day 1:

Dear Best Friend-

Let me count the ways that make you just that. Oh wait, I can’t measure why, you’ve just always been. Since the day I was born, you made a promise to me that, even if I didn’t return the love, you would always be there for me.

Even when we weren’t speaking I could call for a cry. You’d give me advice. Sometimes words I didn’t like. And even when you rang my phone to let tears go, I was there too. It wasn’t even near reciprocation. Nothing I can do can even compare to what you have already done. Even after I realized the world was bigger than me, you still allowed me to think that I was the most beautiful girl in the entire world.

And why are we able to bond like we do? I mean, for real, we’re WAAAYYY past the “nurturing” stages.

I’m certain you already know that though. It’s your nature that I now need. That know-how to make it, day-by-day. That energy, the strength to know when to say when. The inherent instincts that only a woman can possess. The ability to love. And forgive. The blueprint of discipline and perseverance. The one thing that I can’t understand though: why did you compensate with gifts? A good conversation, a gentle touch, a sweet hug or a kiss would have made my day better than any material possession I owned.

I realize now, that you didn’t know any other way because you weren’t shown any other way. I know it’s selfish that I still feel bitter but, I see myself becoming you. Everything else would be an honor to duplicate. But compensation is ruining my relationships and, by the time I figure it out, it’s often too late. No fault of yours, just letting my bestie know… ;)

And yet, you still managed to be the best damned Mother in the entire world. How? How did you pull it off? How are you still able to give me encouraging words followed by the meanest side-eye?

I pray to one day have your strength.

I pray to one day have your humility.

I pray to one day have your consistency.

I pray to one day have your compassion.

I pray to be as steadfast as you still are.

Until then, I will continue to be your biggest fan- The Princess looking up to her Queen.

Sincerely, Your Baby.

Project...

2010-07-10T03:08:00.003-04:00

So, in the midst of everything that's going on right now, I've decided to keep myself even busier...

I am going to do "30 Days of Letter Writing":

Stolen From http://www.cherriesblossoming.blogspot.com and quoted from Miss Tinea:

"I'm going to do it. I think it's awesome. I don't realize alot of things until they're written down....Yall should do it with me"

So, here we go! Letters to follow because, hey, what do I have to lose?

30 days of letter writing

WRITE A LETTER TO THESE PEOPLE :

Day 1 — Your Best Friend

Day 2 — Your Crush

Day 3 — Your parents

Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)

Day 5 — Your dreams

Day 6 — A stranger

Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush

Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend

Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet

Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to

Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you

Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from

Day 15 — The person you miss the most

Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country

Day 17 — Someone from your childhood

Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be

Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad

Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest

Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression

Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to

Day 23 — The last person you kissed

Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory

Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times

Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to

Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day

Day 28 — Someone that changed your life

Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to

Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

Past The Surface...

2010-07-08T21:32:00.007-04:00

My loves manic manipulation,

Controlling anger and frustration...

Leads to my hate and defeat.

That's how I feel when you're not with me.

You cant be serious? That there's no listening existing?

I can take better that

We have a problem co-habitating.

And even that's hazy...

This shit is really crazy.

My head is aching

So I stay awake all night lately

"Stay busy", "Stay Busy"

Music making...

Fear that the snakes and broads will start to bite

The yes men

The okay girls

In plain sight

I just might

Not give a damn

In due time

But that's not apart of my plan. In my mind.

In my feelings...

I'm supposed to feel this,

Cuz these tears harvest my growth

And the flowers bloom in Spring

But in Summer, your hiatus

But remember in that Fall I fell,

I saw something promising

That even if the title changed like seasons,

I had a friend who knew my reasons

for loving, and living carefree

So that My Love could see past surfaces seas

That there's more to life than hurting.

Ultimately, my Love, and his manipulation bursting from the seams seems to trump his love for me.

Soundtrack to Summer - I Double L Featuring B Fly

2010-07-06T00:37:00.001-04:00

Something to groove to...Enjoy! :)

Star Spangled Banner- Acapella

2010-07-04T17:28:00.001-04:00

Today, I celebrate my independence from insecurity. What are you celebrating today?

Lady In My Life...

2010-06-30T01:26:00.001-04:00

My MJ Cover. Acapella. Enjoy :)

Miseducation...

2010-06-28T04:10:00.001-04:00

Do you have that one song that, no matter when or where you listen to it, it touches you?

Just thought I'd share. :)

Gifts...

2010-06-23T23:41:00.005-04:00

We all have them.

The beauty of these things, these gifts.

The unfortunate thing about gifts? We do not know their power.

So we suppress.

We second guess.

We hurt.

We lack the vulnerability and, in turn, lack the self- worth.

Watch our gifts get pushed to the back like a curse.

Some tangible, most God-given and one of many on your birthright list.

Or...

We know exactly what we do, and never care.

Do you know the gifts that you posses?

The beauty of them?

Do you use them for hurt and pain?

Or uplifting with humility?

Do you take your gifts for granted?

Do you know of the seeds that your gifts have already planted?

Are they rooted in the healthiest, abundantly wealthiest soil for them?

Do you nurture?

Do you allow these gifts to wither away through time?

What if Lena, or Teddy, or Micheal decided that their gifts weren't for the world to hear, feel, share?

What if your Guardian decided that their soil, their foundation, belonged elsewhere?

What if you decide and say,

"Today is the day I let the world see! Today is the day I stop hiding these gifts from me."

Progress...

2010-06-23T00:46:00.002-04:00

Man, it's been a minute!

Working on an AMAZING album. Writing, recording, sending of songs to be mixed and mastered.

The process is the BEST part about it. Because, when I get the finished result, I will know that hard work, frustration, anger, tears, and most of all, LOVE is throughout...

Much love to ALL the people who have been riding with me during this journey. The ones that pushed me onto the stages in Philly and DC, the ones that made me post my videos to youtube. The ones that taught me the process of recording. The ones that listen, and critique without discretion. The ones who follow my rants on this blog and the like.

Love, Love, LOVE you all, so much!

Don't forget to follow me on:

http://www.twitter.com/bflybelton

http://www.facebook.com/bflybelton

http://www.youtube.com/trbelton

I hope yall enjoy it. In the meantime, check this youtube vid out:

Bragging Rights...

2010-06-10T19:25:00.004-04:00

On June 8th, I met with the most amazing TEACHER in my life. I hadn't seen or heard Ms. Frazier in over 10 years yet, when she requested to hear me sing, I felt like a student of hers, all over again...

"That control...your voice is rich! It was rich before but, wow, how you have grown..."

She brought tears to my eyes.

I had told her about my journey into music. My inner struggles with trying to suppress it. She knew that wasn't what was meant to be. And, even after telling her I had completely stopped to the point where people who have known me for years, didn't know I even had a voice. She knew of my gift before I even had an idea of what I was taking for granted.

She assured me that, all singers are self-critical. We should be.

She listened to my youtube videos as they took her breath away. My originals, my acapella's and, through all this, she told me I was MORE than a singer. I was, I AM VOCAL ARTISTRY.

WOW.

"It feels so good when students like you come back and tell me. "Thank You", you have made my day!"

For all those that know me, Ms Frazier is THE ONLY teacher that I speak of in such high regard. She yelled, taunted, pushed, teased, and praised, all in perfect measure. She has a magical ear and knows what potential one can have if they just push.

And for that, I will always love her.

Git Er Done...

2010-06-04T05:01:00.004-04:00

I've learned a valuable lesson this week.

One that has been beaten over my head so often yet, didn't quite settle in the the brain until this afternoon...

If you're an 80's baby, and/or grew up understanding any modern Language on this globe, then you will know this brutally honest saying, coined by THE GREATEST Basketball Player to live. And his sneaker contract, of course:

"JUST DO IT"

Yea. Just do it. Get it done. Things are less painful if you stop with the excuses, self pity and overall fear of the unknown...

I'm a Gemini, I play mind games with myself daily. One I do NOT like playing is the fear game. It makes you feel inadequate, in places you know deep down inside you can excel. This is my Achilles heel...

Enough of that. Because I could go on. It's just what I do, so...

Just do it. I did. Also, because I say so.

It's My Birthday...(For My Mommy)

2010-05-31T03:06:00.014-04:00

Go, go....GO Shawty, It's my Birthday!!

I'm gon party like,

It's my birthday,

Cuz, duh...?

I was born this day.

And to be made this way, this day?

Ha, no way God placed this talented, semi-timid, beautiful womb...

In the hands of a nurturer whose beauty bloomed even more after having two.

WHEW!!

Damn, my Mama B.A.D.

Not because she had me.

But because she kept together,

She.

After me.

Before me.

During me.

And without her?

There would be no Tiffany.

So this day is dedicated to her.

To the woman that prayed, cried, loved and,

Gave me her last P.B.&J.

I Love You.

The Motivation for Me...

2010-05-26T17:07:00.006-04:00

"The motivation for me? Is them tellin' me, what I could not be..."

Is them tellin' me what I could not see,

What I thought i saw,

what they told me wasn't there

Should i care?

when your actions don't say what your words can prepare?

Keep your plate of vicious lies,

Sides of deceit,

Twisted words,

Of heat and cheap cheats

And I'll pass on dessert

For what its worth,

The aperitif wasn't all that bad...

It burned going down

Cuz the instinct settled in.

The word vomit came out,

Then under the table you went BUT,

You didn't duck fast enough!

You must didn't hear me when i said i was tough, huh?

And I aim to please me,

So when I aim,

I please ME...

Plates and silverware to your door

Cuz your eyes,

your windows,

been cloudy from the start,

So this glass I'm raising goes straight to the heart...

Because that's where I feel it

When I motivated to hate this

When I'm motivated to look past the lies and the fake shit,

Listen to your logic and basis,

To see that it all was baseless...

Especially when you can't follow your own motto of:

"Handle it"

SO...

The "motivation" for ME, is YOU tellin' ME what I could not be,

What I could not see,

What I already saw

When you hit "delete"...

Oh well.

Mad City 2010...

2010-05-25T23:37:00.003-04:00

Preview and purchase on http://www.madcity2010.com All proceeds goto http://www.keepachildalive.org

View all the artists on the album, including me :)

Feet First...

2010-05-23T17:16:00.004-04:00

Jump in, the waters fine.

The temp, just right.

The risk is outta sight

but I promise, you'll be alright.

Just the other day I did some cleaning.

Old leaves fell into the water, hoping for their last life, dreaming.

Didn't change my hue tho.

Still crystal blue tho.

And many memories of others distant, so far off the system like Pluto...

So, feet first, I'd tell you to jump in. The dead man float doesn't exist in the abyss you're about to be in...

Everything is Music...

2010-05-20T13:08:00.005-04:00

In my mind.

In my heart.

Since 5. 31.

That's where we start.

So here I am.

Just my thoughts.

Over Again.

In my heart.

My hard earned work turned its back on me.

Under pressure I went.

Deep end.

Couldn't see.

In search of me.

And the journey's getting better.

Better to think.

Better to shine.

Better to express myself.

Finally time.

To sing to world

what I see

Everything is music,

And its everything to me.

The Beginning...

2010-05-15T17:40:00.001-04:00

The beginning of the musical journey. Shout out to Lounge 1433!

Talked to Strangers...

2010-05-14T23:28:00.002-04:00

Talked to a lot of strangers this week.

Beautiful people.

Dialogue we had was great.

There are a lot of people in the world who look, think, act, and feel just like you. But there is always that "something special" that makes you, YOU.

Don't be a stranger to yourself.

Know who you are. Find it. Work it. Love it.

Life is GOOD!

2010-05-12T19:01:00.003-04:00

If you all were wondering...

I have a roof over my head.

Family that provides.

Friends that listen.

Music that people want to hear.

A fan base.

Love.

Life is Good!

Pride...

2010-05-10T21:05:00.006-04:00

Dear Pride-

I pray that pride doesn't take me by the heart,

Step on my ego,

In the peak of the dark so,

Lemme figure out

Exactly where to start,

Without sounding like I'm bragging bout my new found love of art.

Of the art of loving love that's truth.

The art of putting a puzzle together

Never before having the challenge to better

Myself sans the pride of minor accomplishments

I put in work and, when the day is done,

It still feels heaven sent.

So if pride allows the situation to be meant

Forever, Pride, I promise not to get.

Bad Guy...

2010-05-05T03:12:00.003-04:00

Say hello to the bad guy

You say I’m the bad guy?

When I wasn’t the one laid with another guy

Why?

Do you feel the need to make me into monster?

Say hello to the one that

Let this go when

We both know

It was going down under

Their sheets

Couldn't you see what I see?

Why didn’t you see you were reaching into something that would make you feel like leaving?

Then coming right back

I was the one that saved you

I was the one that never let go

Of the feeling

That we had before

So why am I the bad guy

When I was the one who held on

Who tried

To work thru your demons

I was your counselor

Your enabler so

Say hello to the bad guy

You say I’m the bad guy

Why

Cause I tried?

So fine

Say hello to the bad guy.

*Dedicated to a friend. My BRIEF interpretation of his situation*

Oldie, but Goodie...

2010-05-05T02:59:00.002-04:00

'He, or She, Who Hesitates is lost'

Its been on my mind since you said you were gonna ask for her hand...
That phone call I made, and a girl answered.
What was I supposed to say? Do?
We had argued, just a few days before. I wanted to apologize by singing to you...
"Feeling the way I dooooo,
Its hard to keep focus...
One minute, staring at the moooon,
Next into your eyes..."
You know the rest.
And I thought you knew that's how I felt, until...
"Hello?"
Oh no, it wasn't that mans voice. His deep, melodic and smooth voice that got me moist...
But I never got the nerve to say, or ask, or attempt to stop your plan to move on to another...
And who says the he who hesitates is lost?
I do.

Perfection...

2010-04-30T09:48:00.002-04:00

In a funk

But I don’t give a fuck

And I don’t give a what

The fuck are you talking about

This time. The broken record.

The choices I make are for protection.

My naiveté shows me the wrong direction.

And I’m hurt.

I’m angry.

I’m pissed and you can’t measure

You busy worrying about pleasure

The gift I give. No pressure.

Personal goals that I continuously fold on

The stress from her

For them

From it

From me

From him

Unnecessary because he lets me know daily that

He don’t care that much.

Whose glasses are rosier?

Whose glass is overflowing?

I’m half full. Realistically in us.

The others a bust in my mind, b.s.

There is no unless. No options to fail.

Perfectionist in a chubby body.

Perfectionist unemployed.

Perfectionist pressured.

Perfectionist changing without trying

And growing sans the lying

And still not being believed by the mass that is he

That’s all that matters in the perfectionist that is me.

Just My Thoughts produced by I Double L...

2010-04-23T17:51:00.001-04:00

Just in time for Summer :)

Sonar...

2010-04-18T11:06:00.002-04:00

Sonar took me to the limit yesterday evening...

As I was finishing up some song ideas for my Producer to listening to, I had the "bright" idea to create a folder for, well, my "bright" ideas!

As soon as I transferred my final song, they all disappeared. Like, forreal, into the abyss that is Windows 7. Gone, Never to return...

7 days and 22 songs later, I wanted to pull my hair out. I had attempted to be so organized, that I ended up cleaning my program. The emotions that flowed thru me were all jumbled- the way my files sat before I came up with this "bright" idea...

Luckily, I had saved a second draft to my desktop. Take THAT, Sonar!

Moral: Bright ideas don't always yield positive results. Keep having them anyway, but remember, always have a backup!

Foundation...

2010-04-11T17:26:00.006-04:00

FOUNDATION is key.

Foundation is KEY.

Foundation IS key.

These 3 words are going around and around in my head as I attempt to breakdown a track that I just wrote. A track that, made SO much sense on paper but, makes no sense in SONAR...

So. Where do I begin? With the foundation, of course!! *cue sarcasm* duuuuhhhh... *end sarcasm*

When I write, its organic. No structure. Just the music and a special melody I hum until the words stick to the brain, then flow to the paper.

Before I get into the thing that makes me go 'hmmm' let me just say that, writing is easy. Singing is a breeze. Putting the two together however, is not. Think about this:

The first thing any songwriter will tell you is to, "step outside of yourself and let go." Then they'll turn around and say, "Every great song has a structure..."

*blank stare*

My tidbit for the day. As you were.

Rapper In My Mind...

2010-03-31T16:31:00.006-04:00

I swear, I'm a rapper. In my head only. Ask anybody who knows me, anytime a Jay lyric flows thru a speaker, I'm up, rhyming, mannerisms, etc...haaaa...like the best that ever did it.

Well, a couple of days ago, I wrote one of my infamous raps that never gets heard. And for once, I let someone hear it.

Shocked, surprised, and slightly appalled, my Producer had no idea that I could come up with what I did. For the obvious reason that, I would never let anyone else hear it...:)

SIDENOTE: My Producer is FAR from an "ego-booster". He tells me my shit is crap when it is and, when I need to go even harder...

With that said, I gots me some courage, and another CREDIBLE ear, I think I'll actually record it!

Inspiration...

2010-03-28T14:03:00.002-04:00

Its been a very fulfilling month musically. Although I can't say I have completed work, I can somehow say that I have new and better ideas. Pushing the vocal envelope, these stories, rhymes, cadences sound great in my mind and in a room with just me and my thoughts. The true test comes from letting others hear. With no fear. That's when inspiration truly enters.
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Mind Madness...

2010-03-12T08:03:00.003-05:00

On Wednesday, I performed at Mind Madness, a place where singers, poets, rappers and beyond can come and showcase their talent. It was located at Club Soda in Washington DC.

The crowd was small and engaged in the music. The vibe was amazing. Every single person that hit the stage was inspiring.

Shout out to RightMind215 for letting me be apart of such an amazing movement!

New Posts...

2010-03-09T00:01:00.003-05:00

Feel free to comment at http://www.youtube.com/trbelton

So Amazing...

2010-03-07T10:25:00.003-05:00

Let me just start out by saying it's a beautiful day out!

It's so amazing to me, the talent that comes from people. The creativity from every artist I meet inspires me further.

Which leads me to worry: How can I possibly be as amazingly artistic? To walk beside others in this realm of music? To be categorized with the Epic... The only way is to create my music for me. My own lane, essentially.

Because me is all I can be. Unconditionally.

No room to be apprehensive, or fearful of what people think because, I 'm literally "doing me".

And it feels So Amazing.

"The World, Craig..."

2010-03-06T02:03:00.000-05:00

My stage name is Morgan Monet. Subject to change, I'm leaning towards BFly. Its easier to remember and, I'm called that more than my real name.

I'm from Philadelphia. Product of the magnet school system. Product of the Arts. The culture of music is in me. Like, part of my DNA however, I decided to 'pursue' a degree in International Business in College...*crickets*

Now that I've mastered the art of pleasing my folks and, after being fired from a job I held for 4 years, I know that I'm ready to do what I want to do. I want my life's plan to be my own. So that I can either take the credit, or the fall...seems simple, right?

Wrong. I'm shaking in my boots!! *insert light laughter*

Seriously? A whole lot of people are afraid. They think job 'security' is the way to go. Now, I don't know if thy have stepped outside lately but, now more than ever, i see men and women with PhD's sleeping on the streets. If that's the definition of job security, Ill pass...

I'm thinking now, I might as well do what I've always wanted. Nothing occupying my time or energy. Nothing stressing me. My only worry is how to convey my thoughts into beautiful music for the entire world to hear.

Yes, I want the ENTIRE world to listen.

One of my new favorite quotes, thanks to my best friend comes from Friday After Next:

"The world, Craig..."

Everything...

2010-03-06T01:55:00.000-05:00

So, in the past 2 days, Ive seen 2 blogs that have inspired me to say, "what the hell?, start your own, and make it about what you REALLY love!"

I promise to blog about music. I also promise to ramble about things that I'm passionate about outside of music. More than likely, I will bring it all back to music because...

Everything Is Music. To ME.